"There's nothing here to hold on to, Can I hold you?"

My whole life has been an easy one, admittedly. I have always had someone to hold onto for my own direction. At first, my intelligent sister was my model to be more educated and take on the world. She went to college and it became my eldest brother, who modeled a truly laid-back lifestyle for me (even though I never came close to mastering it). He went to college, so lastly, it was my older brother Tyler. He, whether he knew it or not, modeled being openminded and taught that uniqueness is often a blessing (it's conformity that's often the curse). But then he went to school. The logical person to hold on to next would have been my mother, but, with all teenage rebellion aside, I disagree with many of the things she so willingly strives for. Yes, for all those who know her, She is a great woman. However, I don't want to be like her. Maybe a few things are notable, but otherwise, no.

At first, I looked for anyone to hold onto. But while searching, i realized I was not sinking. I was fine. This past summer and the beginning of this year, I have "embraced myself" per se. Though corny, I have not held onto any main person. How freeing it feels to just live. No decisions are made for other people, you just live. Granted, I still have not mastered the intelligence, laid-back-ness, or openmindedness of my siblings. But I have mastered the art of simply living. Rather than asking "why should i?" to various actions, I have begun asking "why should I not?"

If anyone is out there reading this, don't hold onto other people. You'll be just fine by yourself. I promise. Let go and live.