"Wish I could be Part of that World"

Do you remember The Little Mermaid? Aerial was so pretty with her long red hair contrasting perfectly with her green fin. Why wouldn't she be happy? Her father is "King Of The Sea", she has her own treasure room, she races her friends on dolphins backs, and swims all the time (which is perfect exercise and you would never have to wear makeup). But do you also remember her plea for help in the song "Part of Your World?" If you don't, please look up the lyrics.

She doesn't sound to happy, but why not?

Admittedly, My past posts have been my own twist on her tune. I have sounded like the most discontented person ever. Some of that is my personality, and some of that is also my birth rank. You see, I am the youngest in my family, so I grew up watching three other people go through phases in life and do things that I could never do. Looking back, I have always wanted to move to the next phase. When my sister was the first to go to High school, I remember helping set up her locker before school started and looking in the halls thinking "I only have a couple of years till I get this." However, Now that I am in this stage of life, It is old news. My family has been through this three times already. So now I enviously look at them going to college and living on their own (It doesn't help that I am asked nonstop about how my sister's marraige is doing. I'm tempted to tell them "I don't know, why don't YOU call her and ask her?"), but in the back of my mind I know that by the time I get there, the magic will be gone. It will be old news. It's funny how people are enthralled with the first people to do things. Rarely do people appreciate the ones who come afterwards. But without the followers we would still be following Swiss physician Friedrich Miescher's basic principle of a nucleus. We would have no knowledge of the complex structures in a cell, like the Golgi Apparatus or Mitochondria, which were discovered afterwards. They were discovered by the followers. The ones who came afterwards. The ones who were not noticed and had to prove that they were worthy of admiration and the spotlight.

My personality is an impatient one, but I have always wanted to grow up and I am always disappointed when I do. To all you non-youngest children- I know you have your problems too but please be thankful for your position.

Maybe I will be discontent until I struggle to finally learn how to enjoy phases of life even though I am not the first one (or even the second or third). As always, this is nearly impossible to do and incredibly easy to say. I need to stop wishing, like Aerial, that I could be "Part of [their] World."

"Workin' 9 to 5- What a way to make a living.."

Work. That word typically has negative connotations but I love it. Yes, it's tiring and sometimes that people are obnoxious, but It's different. I am learning something completely new and there is always more to know. No need to worry- I am not a Workaholic in the making. I just got tired of the typical high schooler summer a while back. I don't really enjoy sleeping in till 2 and then getting up eating leftovers and watching tv until you go out with friends at night. Don't get me wrong, that's fun in moderation, but three months of that?! I need to go out and accomplish something! I love being with my coworkers who are not constantly spitting out "that's what she said"s or perverted jokes. The more I'm around that jank the more I do it. They make me laugh at no one's expense. They see the world the same as me- as something to be conquered and explored. Most people my age see it as something to serve and pamper them. I may not be the most proactive of people, but I am not lazy either.

It's ironic that my time is spent helping other people see better, yet the people are teaching me how to see better as well. I guess it comes down to this- The typical high schooler values things and uses people but I'm ready to end that phase in my life so I can use things and value people.

I'm ready for my senior year(the last year of this phase)! More ready than I have ever been.......