"I've got my life in a suitcase"

High School.....

Some say it is the best time in life
Others say college owned high school.
Still others say anything is better than middle school.

I don't quite know where my opinion lies in this discussion. The best times of high school have been awesome but, I will not reserve my frustrations about it. All I can conclude is that a considerable amount of things in my life right now are temporary. I solely have one year of high school left until I establish my own boundaries and step out from the lines that have been drawn so vividly for years. Though some idolize the step (and yes, I used to be one of them), I am quite numb to the subject. My excitement to experience something new is nullified by the slow pace of my current high school career. My performance on academics has become perfunctory because I am so tired of learning about subjects I will never again address. I love to learn, but I am selective of what I want to learn about. Whether this is a flaw or a gift, I have not yet decided.

I haven't decided a lot of things. Like what to do this summer, what I want to do with my life, How long an average high school relationship is supposed to last, whether a bunch of acquaintances is better than close friends, are high school friends temporary or permeneant?

I have yet to decide how strong I really am. Currently, "I've got my life in a suitcase. I'm ready to run away."

Is that laziness or discipline? ungratefulness or just perspective?